I’m one of those people that if their day isn’t planned to precision gets stressed and panics, it causes my anxiety to kick in and then if the day isn’t completed I usually end up crying myself to sleep. The days tend to feel incomplete without structure as I then feel like nothing has been achieved that day. 6 planners it takes me to organise my day so that I don’t get stressed, it’s obseen.
This is not living life, it’s not enjoying the moment, yes it makes the most of the day and makes the day productive but sometimes we all need time off. We need days where you can lounge in pyjamas all day, or enjoy long walks and coffee dates with friends. Everyone needs that breather, that fresh breath of spontaneity. Plans change and they will change and sometimes you won’t get everything on your list done and that’s ok. You have other days to complete it.
The day off will usually come unexpected when you have a fair bit planned, in my case it’s if family needs me, or I end up in the hospital from the pregnancy. Most the time that happens is because stress and worry occurs over the smallest thing. Sometimes the best days are the days you just let go and take it as it comes, accept it with an open mind and it changes everything.
Sometime that negative of everything not going to a plan turns into a positive and being something you’ll treasure as a memory for life.
As they say “yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift which is why it is called the present”. Start living in the now and try to let go of the past.
This year one of my many resolutions is to learn the ‘art of relaxing’ Relaxing is one of those things that I’ve always struggled to get the grips because there is always something to do- you never switch off. For me it was being in the hospital written off work for exhaustion for one week that gave me the kick up the backside I needed to learn that making time for yourself is important. Your body needs to recharge itself otherwise it will begin to self destruct, so these are the steps I’m taking (hoping if I write them on here I’ll actually do them).
1. Stretch or practise yoga in the morning or the evening. When I was younger I used to do this daily to help me fall asleep or to wake me up before a morning run. It was so calming it’s just another thing to get back into.
2. Once a week treat myself to a luxurious bubble bath with all the oils and bath bombs imaginable and complete it with a face mask. Ok so I’m hoping even when I’m a mother this might be possible to complete one of the two at least. They’re one of those things that make you feel good about yourself inside and out, therefore easing up and allowing you to unwind and not think about anything else.
3. Read, read read. Whether this is the news when I get up or a chapter of a book or blog posts. Knowledge is power, this way I’m learning and relaxing at the same time.
4. In the evenings give myself 10 minutes to look at my daily quote, along with 5 positive things about the day. Making me realise that a lot can be achieved, even if it’s the little things, to remind yourself that a little ‘you’ time doesn’t hurt.
5. Last but not least, once baby is born, get back into my fitness pattern to release those endorphins and make me a happier, less grumpy and tired human being.
Wish me luck
So it’s safe to say 2016 has been packed and busy and a lot of dramatic changes have happened all in one hit. As it’s drawing close to the end of the year and Christmas is just round the corner I thought I would speak my mind a little bit. This blog needs a little bit of uplifting and I feel like this definitely is just that too me.
At the beginning of the year I dropped out of college and with all the judgement I got from the older generation was not pleasant however at the same time it pushes you to realise you can achieve what you want without grades on a piece of paper. College is not everyone and that needs to be taught, I’m now able to support myself and be independent. Working has made me unbelievably happy no matter how many hours I do, it’s nice to say I’ve found the balance.
However in June, only working in my new job for 6 months, I found out one of the most life changing and terrifying things in my life, I was pregnant. My instant reaction was to go outside and have ridiculous amounts of cigarettes whilst I figure out how to tell my boyfriend and my mother. Did I even want the child? Could I live up and cope with the judgement for being so young? To keep this short and sweet lewis and I didn’t take it well and we had a massive panic, then mum was actually quite happy, cool, calm and collected.
Now I’ve got used to the idea of being pregnant and I’m slightly happy it’s changed my life for the better by not smoking and drinking to solve my problems. The best thing is knowing that I’m being discharged from therapy in a few sessions and that’s thanks to all this. The shock has turned into something good.
Today’s society tells me I’m too young and I’ll never be able to do this, the looks of disgust people give me in the streets. Even now I get slightly nervous about seeing people I know from college or secondary school and them noticing me being pregnant. Life is life, if people want to judge so be it, I can’t thank the people that have supported me enough through this and it’s all the excuse in the world for extra coffees and lunches out!
At the end of the day, enjoy your life and take on everything with your head held high with pride, because it’s not worth worrying about other people’s opinions.
A year ago today was completely different to how I feel today, a year ago today I was in A&E for attempted suicide. I felt there was nothing left to live for and that nothing would ever get better. I wasn’t getting therapy and no one could see what the problem was or why I felt this way. In some respect I don’t know either still today. But this year I’m not better but I’m getting there, I’m open with my family about how I feel and I don’t hold back my emotions. If it wasn’t for my friends, family and boyfriends support I definitely wouldn’t be here today, and it proves life does get better whether you believe it or not. Whether you have been in and out of therapy for 7 years it still gets better. There are so many things in life to remember and be grateful for; you’ve just got to learn to appreciate every moment you’ve got.
So yay for today the good and the bad and yay for the light at the end of a tunnel. Yay for happiness and yay for sadness and never be afraid to be vulnerable and honest.
Recently I’ve been STRUGGLING for dear life to keep fit and do my ab workouts especially at the moment with my bad back from spending hours on the back of motorbikes (worth it because it was so much fun) however the doctors have told me to take it easy. So I thought I’d post the simple ab workout that I’ve been doing before next months very personal post. Ab workouts are definitely my favourites so this is something I’ve really wanted to post, here it goes…
1×25 basic crunch
1×25 leg lifts
1×25 bicycle crunches
1×25 sit ups with twist
1 minute plank
1 minute side plank (each side)
Repeat this five times
Recently I have become obsessed with candles because of how relaxing and fragrant they are. In my woman’s health and fitness magazine it had a discoun for any sale items from the White company. I had just been paid so I decided to treat myself and picked up a few candles.
The first candle is called mustique, I didn’t really know how this one would smell but I thought i would give it a try , it smells absolutely DEVINE! It’s lasting very well for a small candle and was definitely worth the money.
My second candle was Magnolia which was the first one I picked out when looking, again this one smells Devine, the packaging was beautifully done and it has lasted and is still going, when you blow it out it leaves a fresh scent in the room. Instead of that really awful smell that can be left by candles.
Overall I was very impressed with the quality of the candles and how quickly my delivery came! Plus who could resist the free delivery on the discount card!
Apologies for the short post but I hope you enjoyed it
These photos are a bit pants but this was a last minute idea blog post. Last year I chose to try get fit for the wrong reasons, I wanted to loose lots of weight but slowly you realise that everyone is different and it’s better to be healthy than being underweight, so I really worked hard on just keeping fit, eventually my stomach got to the way it was in the photo above.
I bought my gym membership and at first I used it all the time but then we got the family horse (Leah) and that alone works the muscles in your arms and back really well so eventually I cancelled my gym membership because I wasn’t going because I had no time and that was in the last few days.
Recently I’ve lost my motivation but I’m determined to get back to how I was because it’s such a great feeling and helps with stressful situations. It’s the only time I get to focus on one thing and get to think. So as of today my next few blog posts will be about getting back to the way I was and lots of it will be on food because food is amazing.
Hope you enjoyed the post!
(P.s enjoy the Alice in wonderland motivation)